Day 147 - No Rhyme

Really felt like I killed it yesterday.  The scale doesn't show any change though.  On days I feel like I got total Fat Fuck I drop 2 pounds.  "She falls down a well, eyes go crossed. She gets kicked by a mule, they go back to normal. I dunno."

On slightly happier notes, I bought a pair of second hand jeans in size 38 instead of 42.  Some of my old jeans are way baggy now - mainly because I wore them baggy even at my heaviest.  Still a long ways to go, that's why I'm not buying more than one pair, but it's kinda nice to have some smaller pants. 

Today's meals:
  Breakfast:  None
  Lunch:  None
  Snack:  Pretzels, almonds, Dt Mt Dew
  Dinner:  Baked chicken, mashed potatoes, corn, and Dt Mt Dew.  Plus a small bowl of ice cream with strawberries on top.  The ice cream was payment for some computer work I did for family.  It woulda been rude to say no. 

Exercise:
  Pushup Challenge -  15
  10k Steps -  8.2K
  Squats - 20  (forgot to do more sets)

Vitamins & Supplements:  Forgot to take em...     : (
                   More information here:  http://www.dbaff.net/2017/11/vitamins-and-supplements.html
Water intake:  Still low - probably 6 glasses max. 


Was I A Total Fat Fuck?  A Quick Look:

Timely Post      Water Intake      Vitamins         Eat Well           10K            Squats?     Push-ups?         

Yeah, 3 outta 7 ain't gonna get me where I want to be.  I had good intentions, but helping out with my MIL's laptop put a kink in my plans.  It was nice outside and I fully intended to knock out the rest of my steps, but I didn't.  No real excuses.  I could have done it when I got back home even though it was dark.  Instead I played PUBG while the family went to bed.  Wrong move.

One hundred and forty-seven days down.

Day 146 - Sweating Popcorn Oil

I guess my body didn't enjoy the gluttonous rampage I had at the movie theater yesterday.  My goal today is to get at least 4 out of the 7 green check marks.   Shouldn't be that hard as 2 of them are gimmes.  I just need to make myself do it, that's the key.  I just read that Kevin Smith had a massive heart attack over the weekend.  He's a bit older than me, but I have always loved his movies and think he's an awesome dude.  He's ok so far, but it's another reminder that us fat guys are really playing with fire.  If I want to be around to see my kids get older I have to be serious about not being a Fat Fuck.


Today's meals:
  Breakfast:  None
  Lunch:  Dt Mt Dew
  Snack:  Pretzels, almonds, and Dt Mt Dew
  Dinner:  Stir fried turkey breast, brown rice, spinach, fried egg, and sauted vegetables. Plus Dt Dew.

Exercise:
  Pushup Challenge - 25
  10k Steps -  11K
  Squats - 60

Vitamins & Supplements:  Multi Vitamin, Super- B Complex, Vitamin C, Probiotic
                   More information here:  http://www.dbaff.net/2017/11/vitamins-and-supplements.html
Water intake: Decent, but not great.. probably in the 6ish glasses range.  Still had a lot of pop.


Was I A Total Fat Fuck?  A Quick Look:

Timely Post      Water Intake      Vitamins         Eat Well           10K            Squats?     Push-ups?           

I wanted to hit 4 out of 7 today and I shattered that number.  I need to keep this motivation going every day.  It helped that it was really nice outside so I could run after my kids for a while to get those steps up.  Dinner and snacks were mostly healthy - aside from the pop.  I feel good seeing all this green.

One hundred and forty-six days down.

Day 145 - Lazy Sunday

Good to see the numbers drop again, although I wasn't expecting it. 

It's supposed to be nice out today so I'm going to try to get my 10k in by walking around the neighborhood.  I'm also going to try and have a better day eating.  Even though I'm down a couple pounds per the scale, I've been gorging on bad food.  My intention is to eat light and load up on veggies today. 

Today's meals:
  Breakfast:  None
  Lunch:  Too much Dt Mt Dew, movie theater popcorn, and candy (Reese's pieces and Twizzlers)
  Snack:  Leftover popcorn
  Dinner:  3 egg omelet with peppers and onions, Dt Mt Dew

Exercise:
  Pushup Challenge -  None
  10k Steps -  8.8K
  Squats -  40

Vitamins & Supplements:  Multi Vitamin, Super- B Complex, Vitamin C, Probiotic
                   More information here:  http://www.dbaff.net/2017/11/vitamins-and-supplements.html
Water intake:  Only about 3 glasses today, unfortunately.


Was I A Total Fat Fuck?  A Quick Look:

Timely Post      Water Intake      Vitamins         Eat Well           10K            Squats?     Push-ups?         

Well, yes.. yes I was.   I ate well for one out of two meals today.  Drank way too much pop instead of water.  And didn't hit my 10k steps.  I did put in good effort on the steps.  The family and I went for a walk and we even jogged for a couple of blocks.  It got dark and cold before I could get to 10k.  I suppose I could have walked the kids home and then gone back out, but they would have been waiting on me to watch a show as a family and I needed an excuse to call it good.  I'm  going to shoot for 4 outta 7 green check marks tomorrow.

One hundred and forty-five days down.

Day 144 - Connected Four

Seeing results from my newfound focus.  For days logged in a row!  Feels good to drop back in the 40's.

I watched a Buzzfeed "100 squats a day" video that helped get me pumped to get back on the squats habit and increase the number I do - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c8Q8AyFjWZM   Maybe not "inspirational" like a CT Fletcher video, but a reminder that it does make a difference.

Today is going to be a bit tougher to get my steps in as I don't have a skywalk to utilize while it's crappy outside.  If I can't get my steps in I need to focus eating right and hitting those other active items.  That's today's goal... we'll see.

Today's meals:
  Breakfast:  None
  Lunch:  Some smoked turkey and a Dt Mt Dew
  Snack:  2 Chip's Ahoy cookies and Dt Mt Dew
  Dinner:  McDonald's grilled chicken sandwich, med fries, Diet Coke, and a couple bites of a Oreo
                 Mcflurry.  Plus - half a normal cheeseburger.  I went close to full Fat Fuck on this meal.

Exercise:
  Pushup Challenge -  None
  10k Steps -  5.6K
  Squats - 20

Vitamins & Supplements:  Forgot to take them....   here's what I should have taken:
                              http://www.dbaff.net/2017/11/vitamins-and-supplements.html
Water intake:  Low - probably only got 3 glasses of water in.  Way too much pop today.


Was I A Total Fat Fuck?  A Quick Look:    (Spoiler:  Yes, yes I was today)

Timely Post      Water Intake      Vitamins         Eat Well           10K            Squats?        Push-ups?      


A whole lotta red there.  Today was almost a complete fail.  If I were to count up the calories I don't think that I really lost it horribly there, but I certainly didn't eat healthy.  The only vegetable to touch my mouth today was the lettuce and tomato on the sandwich at McDonald's.  And, those were questionable. 

I started the day with good intentions, but then it just kinda went to hell.  We were out shopping for clothes (I fucking HATE clothes shopping) and it took for fucking ever like clothes shopping always does, so we were all hungry and getting pissy.  So, convenience won.  I tried to make ok choices on a sandwich.  I should have picked a salad, I know, but I didn't have that level of will power.  Today's meal wasn't great, but it was slightly better than what was my norm back in the day - a two cheeseburger meal, super sized, non-diet pop, and a fish-filet sandwich on the side. 

I feel like crap and hate that I didn't do better today. 

One hundred and forty-four days down.

Day 143 - Three, Three days in a row

I still don't think I was focused enough yesterday to make a difference on the scale.  My guess is this is normal fluctuation so I'm not too overly excited.  It's a little tiny bit of inspiration to keep on grinding out those good "Don't be a fat fuck" habits.


Today's meals:
  Breakfast:  None
  Lunch:  Almonds and a Dt Mt Dew
  Snack:  Pretzels, a little bit of blue cheese (my fridge is bare, lol), and a Dt Mt Dew
  Dinner:  Large plate of pulled pork nachos with a swiss cake roll for desert - not the healthiest                           options at all, but damn tasty.


Exercise:
  Pushup Challenge -  25
  10k Steps -  11K
  Squats -  70
Vitamins & Supplements:  Multi Vitamin, Super- B Complex, Vitamin C, Probiotic
                   More information here:  http://www.dbaff.net/2017/11/vitamins-and-supplements.html
Water intake:  Still pretty low - 4 or 5 glasses


I'm gonna try a new deal where I give a quick look at the things I hit on daily.  Not sure if this will help me visualize how I'm doing or not.   We'll see if it's just a pain in the ass or if it's actually helpful.  So, here's my attempt at that:


Was I A Total Fat Fuck?  A Quick Look:

Timely Post      Water Intake      Vitamins         Eat Well           10K            Squats?     Push-ups?           


Five outta seven.  Killed it on the "active" part today, but failed on the food and water. 

One hundred and forty-three days down.

Day 142 - Two in a row

No change in my weight, but this is the second day in a row that I've posted in a timely manner.  Woot!  Trying to get those good habits back slowly, but surely. 

I'm going to make it a point to get a couple walks in today and get as close to my 10k as possible.  I should be able to walk over my lunch break hopefully.  That's today's first goal.

Today's meals:
  Breakfast:  None
  Lunch:  Almonds and a Dt Mt Dew
  Snack:  Pretzels and a Dt Mt Dew
  Dinner:  Large baked potato w/ butter, onions, small amount of pulled pork and a side of green                         beans.

Exercise:
  Pushup Challenge -  None
  10k Steps -  11K
  Squats -  None

Vitamins & Supplements:  Multi Vitamin, Super- B Complex, Vitamin C, Probiotic
                   More information here:  http://www.dbaff.net/2017/11/vitamins-and-supplements.html
Water intake:  Still pretty low - 4 or 5 glasses


I'm working off of small victories right now, trying to get back in the groove.  Today's small victories:  Hit my 10k steps, posted timely, remembered my vitamins.  Need to keep gaining momentum and make these small victories a habit again.  I'm happy with what I accomplished today.  I'm not sure it's enough to make a difference on the scale, but I'm taking the steps to get back into those habits that will change the numbers on the scale.

One hundred and forty-two days down.

Day 141 - Habits

Alright, trying to get back to the good habits.  The first step is getting back to posting daily.  I know that nobody reads this, it's just so that I remain aware of what I'm eating and doing every day.  It shows me how much my weight is changing - good and bad - due to the daily choices I'm making.  It's my reminder to not be a fat fuck.

Today's meals:
  Breakfast:  None
  Lunch:  Handful of almonds and a Diet Dew
  Snack:  Handful of honey roasted peanuts, pretzels, and a regular Dew
  Dinner:  Large salad, lots of veggies, and some blue cheese

Exercise:
  Pushup Challenge -  None
  10k Steps -  5.9k
  Squats -  None

Vitamins & Supplements:  Multi Vitamin, Super- B Complex, Vitamin C, Probiotic
                   More information here:  http://www.dbaff.net/2017/11/vitamins-and-supplements.html
Water intake:  Still too low...  had a few glasses, but not enough.

It's frustrating to write this out and realize how many good habits I have let slip lately.  I'm drinking waay more pop and as a result way less water.  I haven't been getting very close to my 10k steps on a regular basis (some of this is due to the fact that I've been busier at work, but I'm not making the effort to find time to get steps in either).  I haven't been taking my vitamins anywhere near normally.  I've been eating more.  More bad food and more quantity.  I may not be showing it in a significant weight gain, but I feel cruddy and am sleeping worse.  Basically, I've let everything slip over the last couple weeks.  Writing it down and owning it is the first step to getting back on track. 

One hundred and forty-one days down.

Day 130 through Day 40 - One, Two, Skip a Few

Seems like I can only remember to stay up to date for a few days in a row.  I think part of it is that I'm not as excited as I once was.  I'm not losing as much weight and what I'm losing isn't coming as easily as I once was, in fact I've gained a few lately.  Plus, I think I've mentioned it before, but work is stressing/depressing.  I used to handle this by just eating a lot until I'm comfortably numb.  I've slipped back into that a little bit.  I'll come home from work and over eat on pretzels, peanuts, homemade bread, and pop.  It's like a "congrats, you made it through another day of work!".  It's a bad habit for dealing with this stress/depression/funk I'm in.  Overall, I've made good progress with the weight (still have a long ways to go, I know), maybe I need to approach the rest of my life in the same way. 

Anywho...   here's the catch up:


Day 130

Day 131

Day 132

Day 133

Day 134

Day 135

Day 136

Day 137

Day 138

Day 139

Day 140

Like I said before, I've been over eating on snacks when I get home from work and drinking non-diet pop.  This plus the fact that I'm not regularly getting in my steps, push ups, or squats in means that I'm not making any progress on the weight loss.  When I have been motivated I've been trying to increase the number of push ups I do, but my shoulder is really sore after only 15.  I've really been stretching it out lately, but it doesn't seem to make a difference.  It even aches some mornings just from sleeping on my side.  Shitty situation.   

Here's my steps:

Day 130:  4k

Day 131:  6.5k

Day 132:  9k

Day 133:  3k

Day 134:  9.2k

Day 135:  12k

Day 136:  6.7k

Day 137:  6.3k

Day 138:  3.5k

Day 139:  9.3k

Day 140:  2k

Once again, I'll try to be more regular with my posts.  My weight loss is suffering due to my laziness - lazy with my steps, lazy with my eating, and lazy with my posting.  

One hundred and forty days down.