So close. Sooooo close. It's bitter sweet. I'm a bit upset I didn't push myself harder or tell my self not to be a fat fuck more often. On the other hand, I'm almost 20 pounds down. That's not something that should be discounted. I still haven't hit 265 though, so I can't stop now. I know tomorrow is going to be tough as the wife and I have a holiday party to attend tomorrow.
Fuck... so close. I need to stay on track. Ugh.
Today's meals:
Breakfast: Pistachios and Dt Mt Dew
Lunch: Salad - veggies
Snack: Cashews, White label
Dinner: Went out to eat with the wife. I was tired of salad so I ordered a grilled tenderloin and a side of coleslaw. I did have 2 Lagunitas IPAs and a few fries stolen from the wife. I was full. Probably wasn't the best choice, but I was burned out on salad - which was the only true healthy option on the menu.
Exercise:
Pushup Challenge - None - shoulda done them today. Made excuses and didn't do it.
10k Steps - 8.5K steps - close but not enough.
Squats - None
Vitamins & Supplements: Multi Vitamin, Super- B Complex, Vitamin C, Probiotic
More information here: http://www.dbaff.net/2017/11/vitamins-and-supplements.html
Water intake: 5-6 glasses - too low.
So, a day of ups and downs. I was excited that I was close to the goal, but depressed that I didn't hit it. Also a little depressed that I didn't stay the course and have a salad at dinner - skipping the beer. But then I think, "I can't be perfect all the time, I'll burn out!". Honestly, I use that excuse too fucking often. Man, it's a back and forth. I get that negative thought process going in my head and it one hundred percent of the time ends in a "Fuck it, I should just quit. I should just love my body the way it is. There's bunches of fat people out there. I'm not that fat.". I can't let that bleed into my head. I don't want to stay how I am... I want to be a healthy weight. DBAFF, man!
Fifty-nine days down.
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