Again with the upward movement. Ugh. I really thought that I was in check yesterday. I suppose what I'm thinking and what's actually happening aren't the same. I must be eating more than I'm mentally noting.
Well, I was hoping to have a better baseline to support today's planned fat fuckedness, but it is what it is. Today I'm meeting some friends at Hooters and watching NFL games for the better part of the day. Not planning on much in the way of exercise or healthy eating at least for lunch. I'll try to tone it down for dinner and will probably skip breakfast as I'm going to have a large lunch.
Today's meals:
Breakfast: A bite of leftover pizza to help take my multivitamin.
Lunch: 9 Breaded chicken wings, a bowl of fries, blue cheese dip, and 4 Miller Lite draws. It was truly an All Pro Fat Fuck American meal! I enjoyed every minute of it. The resturaunt it'self was shitty - bad service, depressing waitress, 5 broken TVs, couldn't get connected to the game we wanted, broken chairs, chipped drinking glasses, charged a dollar for my extra side of blue cheese, and had a confusing bill which included 5 separate printouts and one that didn't belong to anyone at the table. I was assured by the manager that my credit card wasn't charged for the strange receipt because it had a different server listed on it. I of course trust her 100% as the resturant was so well run I don't imagine there being any kind of incorrect billing going on. Maybe it's someone's thing, but there were 4 TVs showing 2 different tennis matches, 1 on the QVC channel (I shit you not), 1 showing a replay of a college game, and 2 on some racin' talk show. WTF? I LOVE Hooters and it probably accounts for 80 pounds of my overall current fatness, but this kind of WTFness is why they are closing up shop in most places.
Snack: Wasn't lunch enough? No snack needed.
Dinner: After the first games we left Hooters and went to Twin Peaks. Better service and better overall vibe. Our waitress was at least personable and attentive. I just drank water here and was going to go without eating but allowed myself to get pressured into buying some food. These friends aren't the healthy good influences that I was with on Friday. I ended up buying some sort of chicken and biscuit appetizer. It was just ok. I should have bought a salad and endured the friendly teasing. It was a much heavier meal than I wanted and I wasn't even that hungry. I regretted the choice immediately. THIS is why I'm a fat fuck. I really need to get over being worried about what someone else thinks. Who gives a fuck if someone thinks I'm girly for getting a salad or nothing at all. I don't give a shit about those that look at me and think "There's a fat fuck". It was that and a combination of sitting at a resturaunt just drinking water and not buying anything. That made me feel a little guilty. I think it was the combo that pushed me into buying something. Plus, the app I ordered was cheaper than a salad. I should have paid that 2-3 dollars extra and gotten something healthy. Then, I wouldn't have felt bad about sitting there not buying something and I wouldn't have felt guilty about eating shitty food.
(Sorry for the wall of text. It's all fresh in my mind and I still feel guilty for being a fat fuck.)
Exercise: Nope
Overall, not a healthy day at all. Got the fat shame and guilt going on. And I have leftovers so I'm sure I'll eat wings tomorrow cause I'm weak.
Forty-seven days down.
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