Day 13 - Surprise

Certainly didn't expect good news.  I knew yesterday was better, but I figured it still wasn't great and surely wasn't enough to notice a change.  But, we're at a journey low.  Now to maintain.

I'll be back in the office for work today, so hopefully I can make good choices.  I tend to drink way more water when I'm at work then when I'm at home.  It's easier for me to fill up my mug and it's always right in front of me.  At home there are too many distractions.  Maybe I need a "at home mug" or a water bottle.  Something that's just there so that I can get a habit of grabbing it instead of pop or just not drinking anything at all. 

Today's meals:
Breakfast:  Oatmeal again. This time topped with a flavored honey that was gifted to me.  Raspberry.  It's ok, I think I prefer the straight up natural honey.  I can tell the flavored stuff isn't real raspberry, but some sort of chemical flavoring. 
Lunch:  Yogurt, a string cheese, and a handful of pistachios
Snack:  Diet Mt Dew 20oz and a .7 oz bag of Crazy Hot PopChips I'd never had them before but    needed something to crunch on.  Pretty decent and only 80 calories.  I know that it wasn't healthy as it's still processed food, but it's better than the Cheetos that were calling my name - calorie wise if nothing else. 
Dinner:  Taco salad.  Again heavy on the veggies.  I lacked on the portion control with this meal. 
Late Snack:  homemade popcorn

I slipped up a couple times today, again.  Portion control and buying snacks outta the vending machine at work.  I feel bloated and full at almost 11 pm.  I know the scale is gonna yell, even if it's just water weight it's not going to be a win tomorrow morning.  It's depressing and makes me want to just say fuck it.  I know it's not the end of the world and I'm still doing well overall.  I just hate myself when I know better and still make the wrong call.  DAMNIT!  Ugh....   I can't change today or yesterday, just gotta do better tomorrow.   Don't be a fat fuck, don't be a fat fuck, don't be a fat fuck, don't be a fat fuck,......

Thirteen days down.